Finding Love..

I am married. to my love. I am living with him.

before marriage i used to wonder we all fell in love with someone, some gets marry some gets rid of it even before what so called 'love' blooms. i used to doubt if this is a thing that we can touch hold and keep it with us safely for ever like childhood possessions. i used to believe that it would stay n the same size and shape, unchangeable. but the truth is that, LOVE is as shapeless and uncontrollable as water,fire and air. it just comes and goes, sometimes it just be around you but you wont know. sometimes you search for it but wont see. in fact it is all around but it depends up on your mood that you will feel it. be calm, be happy, be question-less, be lite and concentrate, it will caress you like a sweet wind..

it was always difficult for me in the beginning when i used to compare the life of my dreams and the life that i am living. i had everything i wanted, fact is, he gave me everything i wanted but the filthy me was craving for even more, i know i was asking too much of him until he felt tired of giving without getting anything back :). i was taken to every where i wanted to go and i was given with everything i feel like having in total, i was a princess in the house of ours. but i was unaware that what i wanted was his time and where i wanted to be was just 'home'..all alone..have some love..have some laughs..and just be happy with out costing a penny..now how will i make him understand that i always wanted something as simple as this..that would hurt him i know..so let me just keep quite and wait for a time to share this with him..

His love is as clear as pure water, i could see it,hear it,feel it but i behaved like blind, deaf and impassive. I am always given a higher position in every crowd. I am being helped when ever i needed support not just me even my family. I was being kissed on the forehead every morning before he leaves office. I am being taken for walk in the evening even though hes tired after office just in the sake that i can have some fresh air out of the house. given head-massages every weekend so that i can start a good week on Mondays. being offered to cook so that i can rest at least a day from the kitchen chores and a loads more to type.. Now guys..tell me,  do i at least deserve to use the caption "finding love" ..??

what the hell is wrong with me :) :) :)..??? over-worked or..? gone mad with something..?

     

trance...

a state of being partially unconscious.. isn't that a nice stage. Some times it helps, to not see what that hurts your eyes, to not hear what that duffs your ears and to not speak what that can make your tongue a bloody sword. Life is not a journey of harmony, happiness and beauty, it is also an expedition of conflict, sorrow and repulsiveness. All we have to do is to pick a spoonful of every dish and taste it.Some of it will be sweet some salty some bitter some hot and some of it can be plain. taste it with all your heart, do not spit, do not gulp, let it spread through your taste glands completely and hit your senses and then enjoy it as it is. life is this-an existence of a soul to go through different stages..live it..!! and once you are done with every stage you are free to free yourself from all the millstones. its then you are in trance but not partial..a complete one..as lite as a feather in the air..    

2012 seems great for IK4..!!!

2012 looks like too good for us kootharas..!!

At the beginning of the year..the most awaited incident happened.. my marriage after a long tension full time..then comes our first baby and now the second one.. so happy..! may be the wombs are different but they will grow with three extra mothers for their own..to grow them..to fed them..to make them laugh..to scold them..to see them on the heights and squeeze one another to hold the excitement..

just waiting for them to land in some time.. :) :)

happy with a few drops of happy tears..

love you all..and love you the new ones.. lets set their cradles..!! 

FYI IK4

Upgrading it after a long 3 years..!!

Happy to inform you all that i have made changes to our space.. i upgraded it..i signed up for adsense and i linked our account with google+ so that evrything we write will get quick cycling on the web. hope you all like it and also i signed up google + with the name Kamp kootharas which expands like K- kunju, A- achu, M- Munnu and P-paachu.. it wasnt accepting the name imperial kootharas so i had to do it..

awaiting your comments sweets..!! Love you all and miss you...!!

Rain and a piano play..!! the most beautiful time ever..!!

a beautiful quote too for you

"Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky."

The decaying self..!!

Will you be fine when you know about the fact that we are all living decays who are unaware about what is going inside oneself? well only a few are that blessed that they have very less experience with the beautiful, cute, little colorful compressed form of mixture of pharmacological substances called tablets.

After having enjoying all the technological luxuries i used to ask myself that am i happy with all that i have around me? am i happy with the modern infrastructure. should i complain what my government couldn't come up with to help our economy function even more smoother like big countries possess? as far as i understood, we are all trying to compete each other that starts between a person to person, a district to district, a state to state, a country to country, a continent to continent and now the modern man is hungry to find someone to compete with in the universal level craving to discover another planeteers. poor man.

why are we doing it? i feel piety on them for abundening the long lost glorious life when we were close to nature.. fearing nature and loving it accepting the rules of it and living peacefully.. entire family hardworking for the whole of them.. strong energetic.. walking miles in a day or sometimes months and months to reach their destination having themselves as the mode of transport. they were all strong, energetic, powerful and brilliant.. a few of the most technological constructions in the world has been built before the what we call 'modernism' took birth. today we need the support of man-made robots to do something while the old man just had their flesh n bones to do it..

with the invention of modernity certain life threatening side effects also took birth which is spreaded across the world like the ozone layer..while the one protect us the other keeps us decaying from the day you see the world.. diseases- like diabetes, BP, obesity, respiratory diseases and arthritis.. that really doesn't have any proper diagnosis.. modern man are still trying day and night the best to find a solution.. and this hell on earth keeps us from living properly.. which simply takes our life while we are alive..and lives as a multiple-self of ours within us.. what happens here is just that all we have built with great pressure and efforts are of no use once you are immersed in its other effects. incapability to breed offspring is also another problem we have.

Why? because of the unethical ways few people use for their own good fortune chemicalizing food products without thinking for a second time how harmful this is to the mankind.. because of the fashion to have bank balance and properties of our own so that we have a shining place in the society working for long hours keeping ourselves still, overworking or exploiting the brains which 100% benefts the employer and a 1% to the employee..friends this leads you to death in a 3 years time- this has been proved by the Cardiovascular Research Network , Australia/ here is the link () if our life is threatened how can we imagine about a new life from us? sounds like a joke. is the modern man strong enough to sweep these problems completely from the phase of the earth?

I dont know what contribution should i give to make things straight. we are not sinners but some one was..those someone whom we believe had great brains..who think thoughts out of the box.. whom we praise as geniuses.. the fault was theirs for having the fire in them to be someone in the pages of victory for inventing stuffs and finding the word ease..

Cant complain anyone literally, i know it. but i must admit my thoughts or that will boil up my head.. thinking about to DISCOVER a change that will do only good for the mankind..one step of mine can be the lead to a happy world..!!

but firstly i must do something for the decaying me..!! :) :)


P.S: will be back with a good idea, may be it will take a month or a year or more than that. but promise that i will be back a day for at least the next generation..

Note: please forgive the grammatical/other mistakes

welcome welcome first junior K :)

Today is very special for me..infact this week is..to explain it..the first thing was the news from our dear pangu having heard the heart beat of our Roll no.1 Junior 'K'..it made me feel like so much uncontrollable..it really made me bounce and i was forcing my goosebumps in.. pangu..really happy for you..no! for us..may i little one come to us fast..oopss!! i think i said it wrong.. may the days to him/her go fast.. really thrilled.. this is not just my words.. i know that paachu and munnu is speaking right now within me..though we all are close in distance its only me who literally is blessed with plenty of time after marriage..so if you all don't post anything or read what i post..i don't have any issues..but after some years..this can all be a hand full of touching stories..that would for sure make our day..like what we call it "orma kurippukal"..i should let you know now..that word did made me "jilbil" :) wow!! "jilbil" isnt that a word from kotharas past dictionary? :(..hmmm

anyways after a long waiting days here comes our first baby..girls lest welcome him/her in to our very special place.. the place which knows us better than any one in this world..there is one more thing that made my this week..our new tour operation firm is also up..i know my kootharas are all aware about it by now..but this is the first time i am goin to mention it here..it was a dream of 'DK' even before i come in to his life.. :) the name we choose is "CURSOSMITH"..the website link is this :- wwww.cursosmith.com ..do visit the website and give me the comments..i am so much happy for both the incidents.. it should better be said like this one is also a birth..a birth of someones dream..

ummm..now! as i believe.."double" always makes "triple" when two things happen then you must expect one more thing to get the 'law' complete.. something on its way again.. gurls gurls be alert.. and keep wishing even when there is no broken star upin the sky.. :) love you all..

just glad like hell..

atlast good things are gonna show up in our life..wooohhhh hoooohh..!!!!

break-up with my sister..!!

i always wanted to write motivating types of posts but ends up with demotivating ones.. i want to take things in a positive way..but ends up taking it negative..

i dont remember the day i started considering jee as my 'own' sister.. even though half of her blood is different from mine.. i never introduce her to someone as my 'cousin' coz my feelings was so strong to her.. we always had same likes n dislikes.. never kept a secret from each other.. but still some where she failed to understand me.. she didnt even cared to ask me.. she didn't gave me a chance to know what i did.. i dont believe the intimacy she had shown me all these years.. i wont believe that was true.. FAKE..!! will a relationship end up in a day.. especially when it comes to "sisterhood"..?? :D :D :D ..

there are many times in our lives i saved her from getting hurt.. she may not know..or she might have forgotten.. sometimes it happens when we get something new.. we leaves the old ones.. we all at some stages in our life might had done it too.. as far as i remember.. i had thrown an old doll on a fine day my dad got me a beautiful, big new one.. just an example..i dont know if this happened with her right now..

relation..!! what the hell is that..?? why should we call it a relation when people fails to understand people.. its better having buddies like US who cares each other like how we do it to ourselves.. hmmmm..!! i wont blame anyone.. but life is just once.. and the days are moving fast.. wasting time for hatred is not said for a sane person.. let me just keep going.. let me also be selfish.. (but never to you gals..thats a promise)

i just got my parents, my husband and you 3 and a couple of other friends to count in my life.. and thats enough.. i am satisfied..

short life.. momentary relations..

The Rain..

Its drizzling..excited to have the sound of the rain in my ears again..and the yummy smell of the hot softening soil..nature does plays big roles in our lives..many times it just takes us to the forgotten days..a very lovely reminder..the rain..sweethearts..the first memory bloomed in me today is about the nights we used to walk through the plat forms in the rain..heavy ones..keeping our umbrellas carried inside the bags rest in peace..and letting ourselves soak our warm brains..what a relief..the tiny hits of each drops made us relieved from the burdens we carry..sticky rats tail hairs..:) :) the uneasy breaths..and filled ears..tasting a few sweet drops..with hugging-cloths.. the hand in hand walk.. telling each other how much we wished to walk like this fearlessly.. hmmmm.. i can see it in front of me, a black an white picture of 4 girls.. :) :) slowly enjoying the rain walks at the so called forbidden time of night for womens to be in the streets.. the notorious 4.. i love US.. hope the time will allow us to nit this kinda memories for another day like today..!! Miss you all..

haPPy birTHday 2 US..!!

i know kootharas are being so busy with life this year..all got hung up with some male kootharas..he hee:) :) :) :).. no probs.. but i am well aware that you all got this day special in your hearts and thats all is what i want.. no matter if you cant find time to write in here..or wish each other or..text each other.. but honestly..i want it in the old way.. love you all and wish us a very lovely year this time and always..

in no time some little kootharas will also appear in our life.. but we should keep it going all iron strong even though we are in between changing diapers.. :-)

forget not this wonderful day.. the day we found each of us..

here goes a toast to IK4 the GREAT..!!

LONG LIVE IK4..!! love you all..