As the Year Goes..!!

As the year walk

Towards the fire of ending

With a cheer rather than

A quiver of sorrow

I look at it with that

Great admiration

Wow. How brave it is

Courageously moving to immolation

Without a turning back

Coating regrets or despairs  

But content as a soul seeks

The eternal release

Even in me, a sorrow took birth

For I lost a leaf from

The tree of my life

My inner self yearn for

A protective shell so that

Death never finds me

To take its turn on me

 The year gave me so much

Mixed up in a crystal bowl

A few sadness and grief

And a handful of

Love care and memories

I still would take

A dozen of guilt that

I wish to set free in the

Coming year as petals of roses in the air

That fly high like uncaged after an infinity

Before this year get over

I desire to share

Love to the unloved

Care to the uncared

Support to the unwanted and

Redemption to the sufferers

May the coming year be

The best times in everyone’s lives

To convey happiness and equality

For the souls are shapeless

But they live in different shapes… 

Brief Life..

Momentary is it

The money we earn and

The extravagances

It only has the life of

A vapor that disperse

And disappears in the air

Like the fishes in the oceans

The herd of birds in the sky

Like the nesting ants underground

Sophistication must be taken

To manifest the right flow

But without being harm

To the fellows survive around

Iron is hard but a fire

Can make it flex like a wire

Or a giant of a mountain

Can be broke with the aid

Of a hand held hammer

Nothings complicated

But just to surrender the

Thrust of unthrifty

Let’s make up our minds

To work hands held tight

For the mother who bears us

Evenly as the fruit of her womb

Not discriminating over

The holes and cuts on us

Let’s be as unbiased and

Impartial as the surrogate mother

Let’s blew off the crimson of

Red petals of Love in the air

And invite unity love and respect…

The Eternal Fusion

The electric chills that chased me

From the woods to the banks of the river

Travelled through my heels and back

Reached behind the curve of my neck

To awoke a shiver

So sensual and insufferable

Still wanting it to not to stop

Passing its clumsy but powerful shocks

That fills my heart with full of you. 

Like butter I melted in to you

Making it look like a

One single perfect sculpture

A flower in the heaven fall down

And you tucked it behind my ears

Like the goddess of love wears it

So elegant and aesthetic

The single soul in me and you

Refused to part in to two

And it clings through the creepers

That grows high to the sky

Spreading its shoots that sprout

In its yellowy green tinge 

That filled my eyes moist.

The zygo grow strong

Impossibly Inseparable

Joining heart to heart

Brain to brain and

Lung to lung

The blood streams blend

And the breaths combined

Build a new personification

From the duet to the mono  

For the rest of the times

That the universe would last…

Rich Wine

Through the years

Like a rich wine

Our bond grew strong

A sniff would be enough

To infuse the spirits

That is adequately potent to

Defeat the senses 

I doubt you carry

The strength to tolerate

The massive shots of

Persuasive ecstasies 

That would explode like a

Fountain of sherry

Sweet savoury bitter and sour…

The Malevolence

Sacred in the darkness of

Howling wild foxes

I tried hard to hide

From the letching red eyes 

Those penetrate through me

Like a sharp sword of lust

I turned around

Passed lightning sharp

Frowns of rage to

The blatant clowns  

I realized that I was

Just a bloomed flower

Of the barren coppice

Where every blossoms wither

My erected buds

Refused to prone

And I struggle to cover it

With my both arms crossed

Poisoned arrows pierced my heart

That bleeds like a river 

Drained as a bloodless corpse

Faith was cruel like a heartless hunter

That left my soul undead in me

For I will be hurled by the stones of

Sympathetic pitying pathetic faces

That would ache as if

The unhealed bruises get hurt

Turning it in to an infection worsened

I grow mature from adolescent to women

Women to a crone

Bearing the invisible disorders  

Dragging my broken self like

A memorial of devilishness

Life and faith is as brutal as

The hungry predators

Libidinous and obscenic

The vultures will haunt me

Even when I am lifeless

But then I will be free as a

White sparrow uncaged

From the sheer attire

Of seductive trunk

Flying high in the freshness of

Boundless freedom and peace... 

The Trio

I was in love with them

Even before I knew I was a girl

Right then when I was a kid to adolescent

And now when I am a complete woman

I watch over them and

Enjoyed their pranks   

They made me laugh and cry

Many times from then to now

One being at each side.

While one push me to fall

One holds me firm

Fighting the chance to let it not hurt

My feathery fragile heart

That’s as light as lather of a soap

One or the other held me high

And tile me from the darkest time

I grew fonder and familiar

With their actions that kept me clear

That I can forever fall

Freely from any heights

And there they will lay a bed

Made out of care

Most safest and softest

Protecting me from thrashing

On the hardness of the earth.

I carry in my heart

The warmth of my love to them

Never shrink but always nurtured

Which will, one day drop the seeds

And flourish the barren fields.

They are my two eyes and two sides

Left and right as strong as

A protective wall

That had always shielded

Every aggressive dilution

To reach me, harm me

How will I ever convey

How much am I grateful,

For the greatness that you offered

And pampered me always like

A snuggling new born pup

This is for you, you both

Two quarters of my life

My own reflections

Intersections of my faith

Two imperative portions of me

Just as my breath and blood

I owe you two for life

And I wish we be together

Lives after lives, this very way

As a tremendous trio

Love you so much…

Unrealistic..!!

Is it real?

The fresh wind, the brids cry

The clocks tick and the zooming lights

Is it real? Am I real

Or just a fairy in an

Unread book

Am I just the words?

Those unroll and free

From some artistic mind

Or am I just a splatter of paint

That a painter briskly splash on the canvas

Is it real? Am I real

Its magical that I can touch him

And I watch his eyes drop in to sleep

I  saw the moon white in dark sky

Roving from one side to other side

The owl cries its song in obsession

I wonder, oh how much I am blessed

That my love is here in me

Encased, his face by my arms

Exhaling the warmth of
Unconditional affection

At the centre of my heart

I could never obsess

I never was given the chance to long

But is it real? Am I real?

Life is just steady

Cold mornings and warm evenings

Freezing nights just in there

For a lovely time to share

My imperfect wholeness

Curves and cuts misplaced

But somehow my heart

Was in place

It thumps arrhythmic

At his palest shadow

Never knowing whether

His approach is really here

But again, is it real?

Many a times I wonder

Is this all just illusion

Am I seeing the unreal?

Or am I just dreaming

Where do I belong?

Earth, Mars or Moon

Questions are many

And answers are rare

How will I break this

Hallucination unreal

Push me tap me pat me

And wake me up from this

Tricky acrobatic mirage

Consciously unconscious

And unconsciously conscious

I feel that this is not real

Still... can it be real…?

Life as it is NOW.. ;-)

I dont know how and where my lifes going or taking me to. Its fast sometimes, its rushing like a thunderbolt but hadn't crash land anywhere yet. but i have someone to stop me when my speed exceeds the limits. all i know is lifes short and days will fade and it will torn apart like an old jeans. i am loving the climate my home as always and i am getting addicted to keep me happy. i don't know how this virus infected me but this is as cool as this winter. I advise people sometime,telling them lifes long you have to sort things out now or you are gonna suffer for that long length of time. other times i would tell them to be positive and pleasant for the live is as short as your eyes blink. am i lying or am i speaking the fact..? i am confused. but finally i know one thing that i am just trying to make my surroundings happy like a morning glory in the morning or a sunflower in the sunlight. I may be wrong cause i am doing this for me. but some others says this is the right thing to do. be around people, try to wipe their tears and blast some blunders for they smile and you are paid.

When i look back, i realize, life had always been reasonable to me, sometimes great too. And what i have now is all the results of my pasts deeds. I dont know how far this wheel will run this way but now i know when it breaks i need to immediately rush to the puncture shop and patch it. I feel euphoric. I have some struggles but its just a few sharp stones on the road that i commute. that cant stop me from chasing the golden butterfly. short or long, life is life and we gotta love it the way it do to us. if it hurts you somewhere, go to the doctor, if hurls stones at you, be an elastic blanket that will bounce it back. Be positive, love is the only one remedy that works for everything in a same way. It can heal, it can repair and it can permanently cure you from anything. Wear it on your face as a lovely smile, do stupid things and keep sorrows away. It will follow you, it will find you. but never let it catch you.

Things that are not ours would never stay. because thats not ours, it has its master waiting for it and that will go some day even though it can prolong the departure for some fraction of seconds if you try to hold it back. but understand. if its gone one day then realize yours is on the way and will be yours one day. don't waste your time pursuing something thats not yours, its a sin.

Have quality time with family friends and strangers. You will learn something from it. No time is ever wasted this way. You will eventually earn. Cook for your friends and neighbours. throw some parties even though you are running out of currencies. You give you get. May be not immediately but sometime when you need it very badly and you see no ways to find it, it will reach you. Don't save, don't lavish, spent wise. If you are meant to become a multi-billionaire, life will somehow take you to there, where you get the hitch to pull the rope to climb up. Money is the only thing that time-travels. It comes from ones hand and goes back to the old hand some other day, this process will never stop, at-least until the whole worlds governance stops this money-hanky-panky.

i say lies, i behave idiotic, i travel nomadic, i eat unhealthy, i sleep orderless, i laze around, i waste time, which means i literally give time to myself and above all i lead a completely out of routine life.

having said the same..

My lifes good. Now and i will try to take it this way forever, atleast until my last day on the phase of Earth ;-
)

Jewel of Ice..

The white ignite

Like a flake of snow

The tiny jewel of ice

Blown in the flow

Of the light breeze at night

Flickered like the white

Dust of silver

Shallow and mellow

That would melt in a click

The souls that had no homes

Circled in the air for some

Billion million years

Waiting for a companion

Of another flake of white

Glow so bright

Every single eye tend

To attend to its dance

Like ballet on the tip

Of just a single toe

We crossed our paths

In between the twirls

Flaring the filigree of the

Silky satin bell-like dress

that bouncing fiercely

We fixed unknowingly

In our eyes and conjoined

Saying fairys of some

Unremembering times

The weakest in the round

Melt in the course

But the dance of the merry

Simply went on

Filling the spaces of spirits that are gone

And then it was only four

Making it a square

With corners that joined

The hands of our own

Creating a solid hard

Cube of freeze

Something looked liked

A crystal supernatural

That hardens like a milky rock

Sparkler called friendship

Bodies apart but the soul reside

Inside that crystal shall  

Always shine bright to ply

This will forever linger

And the world would once

Call this a remnant

Of the sisterly-hood

Of some un-melting flakes of snow

That found its bits on a December night

To make a mark in the history

Like the gem of Koh-i-noor

Together we fly like the

Fairies from the tales

From flowers to flower

Enjoying the taste of every drop

Like the spring just born

And the sun shines bright

We laughed in high

Until our soul were completely delighted

Far we go one by one

But always we hold

The thread of adore

Invisible but indispensable

Always till we are turned

Back in to those tiny flickers

Fall from high in some December night

Like the tiny jewel of white bright ice…

Our Destiny..!!

Just as new as a white bright day

We woke up stretching out in to each other’s eyes

A roll of dreams unroll down

And disappeared in to the darkened maze

We packed our cloths and tends and food

And set out on to the long stretch route

Through the stench and fragrances

And the dirt and thorns

We passed our journey

To find our destiny hidden behind
A lining transparent but unclear..

We collide on people of

White and dark

They yelled plead and do so many deeds

Frightened were we
To their strange feat that

Made us scared and unsafe

And all we were doing was trying hard
To flee away from the Crooked eyes
That watched every of our

Moves and turns

We passed the mountains, the hills and valleys

We saw the autumn fall and spring

Shades of yellow red and orange

Like the bright horizon on a very winter dusk

The lemon blossoms spread

The bewitching aroma

That makes the time still

As if someone stopped clock of

Rushing life we live…

Flower shops grocery stores

Fruit markets and then the meat stores

Where men shamelessly sold

Their own meat that bleed to stink

We closed our eyes with frightened awe

And ran away before they butcher us

We get sweat and thirsty in the

Vast and wide unending deserts

We suffered the bone-crashing chill
That, made us shiver like a

Hot volcano before it explode

Destiny is here, there but nowhere

Our eyes searched every creeks and peaks

Until the long run made us reach

The point where we hold our hands

To begin the run to find
What they call, the purpose of life

Of being here in this paradise

Of love laughter and life

Of greed grief and guile

All we could find is

Our both hands tied to each of one another’s

And our fingers tangled

To make us aware

That’s this is it

What we were seeking

Our destiny is we and nothing else

But together we have

To fulfill the dreams

And solve the puzzles and math of

Every stage that we overtake

Once again and all over

Every day to wake up and find

We both stare each other

Searching for the untold words

That would remain every lasting

From the eyes to the hearts

Passing to and from, time to time

This is it, oh our destiny is

That we were seeking in the creeks and peaks…