hmmmmmmm...:(

Its been days i have been trying to post smething...dnt knw wats happening to me..dnt knw hw to explain the feeling thro which iam goin right now...

We have been asking GOD for a change for long tim..but when it startd happening....:(

Pachu got transfer , for which we were praying for almost 1.5 years...its a happy news, but at the same time its a bad nws tooo..she will be leaving us shortly...

we knw we will be together , even if we got scattered here n ther for the time being...but this transition is really painfull....hard to bear..


machu's fare well day, its also a change..

changes r happening one by one ..but still we r sad..

life is always pushing hard...from the time of birth, any how i was able to find happiness even in small things..... i have been struggling each n every moment..and things turned to be really hard since March 21st,2005 and now its 5 years ..dnt knw why it happnd lik this....

above all we were able to find happiness when we were together...Now we have entered a stage of departure even though it is for a short span of lyf...

I dnt know hw to express my feelings at this moment...


words r struck sme where...i cant write anything...

Love u ol....miss uuuuu.....

the Arrival ... the Departure

butterflies fluttered inside my stomach..i was uncontrolably nervous..i wonder y this happen evn if it was our third meeting..i was so anxious but least concious about how i am..my heart pumped strongly, that i could hear every single beats clearly...there was nothing solid under my legs..i was floating on the air..all this smothered me until my view striked on him..i was holiding "patchs" hand n i was in a sub-unconcious stage,i could feel her fingers..i could hear her saying some thing from far away..Happiness was over flowing..it mute my ears..i never was happy this much whn i passed exams,or whin i got job..we walk towards him..she waved and left us alone..we were so close but it was uneazy fr me to face him..to look at his eyes..to talk.. :)..

The day went unusual..nothing much happened..walked and took rides..foods..fights..laughs..silly talks; we nourished our time with endless topics..i dont have an idea about how fast a day ran to set..after a long days i got freedom from every haunting worries..

As time passed i realized its soon gona be the time to depart..i counted dowm the last hours..2hrs..1 & 1/2hrs..and 1/2 n hr befor we boarded the train..we shaired his reserved window seat..then that was moments of silence..the number of stations for my destination kept on decreasing..i purposely made topics to break the silence..his answers cut short in to single words..a question "when you wil come again"poped up in my mind a thousand times..finally i asked.. he replied comfortingly "next time for our mariage".. it upset me but i gave a grave smile in responds.. 10 minutes befor my place we both decided to be at the door thinking of the ease to get down with out caughting in the web of departers crowd..

as the train wheeled in to the station platform i turned look at hime once again at him but suddenly withdrawed.he too got down with me..i can still feel the air when we parted that day..our fingers lingered for long..wishing to be within forever..eyes fixed firm on each others..he said "dont stay, go..its late..i want to see you goin" i couldnt utter a word..i nodded approvingly..and turned against him..wiping evry drop of sorrow..i know he is mine..we owe each other..still the pain of seperation defeated me..i became inconsolable..i fasten my steps..knowing the guy who adores me is being in the same situation as i am..but i was too week to give him a look again..i climbed the over bridge..my lips trembled..my legs shuddered..i saw him down a hundred inches..his head stretched upward..in the bustling crowd it wasnt difficult for me to spot him out.. :( i crossed the bridge and reached the first platform..by then i was too far from him..while i walk towards the entrence,the train moved,i counted the moving couches till "s4" to give a final wave..he was there at the door and waved me back until his sight split from me...the cold air numbed my whole body..i walked tilting in the wind..looking forward for another wonderful time..a time,just for us :)..