break-up with my sister..!!

i always wanted to write motivating types of posts but ends up with demotivating ones.. i want to take things in a positive way..but ends up taking it negative..

i dont remember the day i started considering jee as my 'own' sister.. even though half of her blood is different from mine.. i never introduce her to someone as my 'cousin' coz my feelings was so strong to her.. we always had same likes n dislikes.. never kept a secret from each other.. but still some where she failed to understand me.. she didnt even cared to ask me.. she didn't gave me a chance to know what i did.. i dont believe the intimacy she had shown me all these years.. i wont believe that was true.. FAKE..!! will a relationship end up in a day.. especially when it comes to "sisterhood"..?? :D :D :D ..

there are many times in our lives i saved her from getting hurt.. she may not know..or she might have forgotten.. sometimes it happens when we get something new.. we leaves the old ones.. we all at some stages in our life might had done it too.. as far as i remember.. i had thrown an old doll on a fine day my dad got me a beautiful, big new one.. just an example..i dont know if this happened with her right now..

relation..!! what the hell is that..?? why should we call it a relation when people fails to understand people.. its better having buddies like US who cares each other like how we do it to ourselves.. hmmmm..!! i wont blame anyone.. but life is just once.. and the days are moving fast.. wasting time for hatred is not said for a sane person.. let me just keep going.. let me also be selfish.. (but never to you gals..thats a promise)

i just got my parents, my husband and you 3 and a couple of other friends to count in my life.. and thats enough.. i am satisfied..

short life.. momentary relations..

The Rain..

Its drizzling..excited to have the sound of the rain in my ears again..and the yummy smell of the hot softening soil..nature does plays big roles in our lives..many times it just takes us to the forgotten days..a very lovely reminder..the rain..sweethearts..the first memory bloomed in me today is about the nights we used to walk through the plat forms in the rain..heavy ones..keeping our umbrellas carried inside the bags rest in peace..and letting ourselves soak our warm brains..what a relief..the tiny hits of each drops made us relieved from the burdens we carry..sticky rats tail hairs..:) :) the uneasy breaths..and filled ears..tasting a few sweet drops..with hugging-cloths.. the hand in hand walk.. telling each other how much we wished to walk like this fearlessly.. hmmmm.. i can see it in front of me, a black an white picture of 4 girls.. :) :) slowly enjoying the rain walks at the so called forbidden time of night for womens to be in the streets.. the notorious 4.. i love US.. hope the time will allow us to nit this kinda memories for another day like today..!! Miss you all..