I am married. to my love. I am living with him.before marriage i used to wonder we all fell in love with someone, some gets marry some gets rid of it even before what so called 'love' blooms. i used to doubt if this is a thing that we can touch hold and keep it with us safely for ever like childhood possessions. i used to believe that it would stay n the same size and shape, unchangeable. but the truth is that, LOVE is as shapeless and uncontrollable as water,fire and air. it just comes and goes, sometimes it just be around you but you wont know. sometimes you search for it but wont see. in fact it is all around but it depends up on your mood that you will feel it. be calm, be happy, be question-less, be lite and concentrate, it will caress you like a sweet wind..
it was always difficult for me in the beginning when i used to compare the life of my dreams and the life that i am living. i had everything i wanted, fact is, he gave me everything i wanted but the filthy me was craving for even more, i know i was asking too much of him until he felt tired of giving without getting anything back :). i was taken to every where i wanted to go and i was given with everything i feel like having in total, i was a princess in the house of ours. but i was unaware that what i wanted was his time and where i wanted to be was just 'home'..all alone..have some love..have some laughs..and just be happy with out costing a penny..now how will i make him understand that i always wanted something as simple as this..that would hurt him i know..so let me just keep quite and wait for a time to share this with him..
His love is as clear as pure water, i could see it,hear it,feel it but i behaved like blind, deaf and impassive. I am always given a higher position in every crowd. I am being helped when ever i needed support not just me even my family. I was being kissed on the forehead every morning before he leaves office. I am being taken for walk in the evening even though hes tired after office just in the sake that i can have some fresh air out of the house. given head-massages every weekend so that i can start a good week on Mondays. being offered to cook so that i can rest at least a day from the kitchen chores and a loads more to type.. Now guys..tell me, do i at least deserve to use the caption "finding love" ..??
what the hell is wrong with me :) :) :)..??? over-worked or..? gone mad with something..?
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