Death!

How easily we say things like "i ll kill you".."hey that stupid fella died".."Go kill yourself"'..How easily we say hey Lillians dad died..or johns brother died in an accident..and etc etc..How easily we says it all..How easy is that world to be pulled out from your mouth or write down in a paper..D.E.A.T.H!! a very short but haunting letter in at least my dictionary now.. its not it haunting me its the pain behind it..its the pain of not being able to see touch hug kiss someone..its the pain you feel when suddenly someone disappear from your life and never come back..

Its true that, they leaves happily..coz they gets free from the ties and suffering that the earthly life got to give them. they also says its the end of their one part of life and they rebirths..whatsoever, the one person who have been on your side who cared you helped you loved you, did a lot of things for you and was a part of your world suddenly says goodbye from life..they not only push us in to a hole of sorrow but also leaves a unfillable space beside us..that space will follow you everywhere even if you try to shove it away..you can only delete the messages from your mobile..but erasing the memories from your own head is one of the impossible tasks..it pops up like a burned toast every time you visit certain places..you smell certain odours..you eat certain food..and when you do so many things that you might have done with that particular person.. to die is eazy..whoever can do that..even the most fearful ones would do it but..its the people around them who suffers with that aching bleeding hole they stab at the centre of our hearts..

This is for my sister(cousin) who at times used to hate me..for snatching her shoes..for snatching her own sister..for avoiding her saying she not big enough to be in our company..and when she was big enough..when she felt she is big enough she took her life by herself..leaving all of us mourning..and wanting her to be back in our group to share all those secrets we kept from her for such long time..Now that you are gone..all those secrets are simply circulate in our minds like invisible dust particles in an empty jar..they cries with us sometime..and at times they makes us cry..

I pray god!..Where ever you are..you get a long life this time..and don't hurt them leaving them abandoned halfway like you did to us..

Love you always..!! <3