dying flame..

gals today i am with an interesting topic aboute "dying flame".. :) .dho the heading of the topic smells a negative cookie,this is absolutely unique from the previous posts.. i know at this particular moment.. nothing in the world can intrest the 6 senses of iK4..but i cant resist me from taking this time to tok about a subject which born from the womb of positive..

see..we all have had heard about one of the famous proverb calld "anayaan pokunna thiri aali kathum" yes a dying flame burns furiously bright.. apart from tucking ourselfs in an unpleasent mark.. lets this time change the plate.. i can see, we are all in a dramatic condition these days..i will say since the year start. i can even fact that we never had this kind of squeezed up time in our life., we faced lot of troubles..some even ran us to the thot of commiting suicide...but some other factors made us hold back ourselves... at this moment the lights of our courage is totaly diminished..and hope..totally drained.. we are running through a world like a white blank paper..we dont see the cungestions of the traffic, we dont hear the laughs and cries of others, we dont realized when it is light around and when it is drak..we are in a single word called "BOREDOM"..we are not even just "in" that state.. we are infected by boredomness..it should be cured or we will suffer like anything...

all in a point we are on the peak of our bad times..thers no going forward..thats the end..on the topest point..our despair is on the peak..like the flame of a dying candle..thers nothing called "next" thers no future tens.. thats simply the end.. while nearing the peak of a mountain the world becomes small..and our vision far wider..it gives great views..the views of the traveled path dried with the sweats of our hopelessness..same way the candle.. burns in the misery of bad luck.. which remains the ashes of the past...sooon it will be blown by the wind of happiness leaving no traces of the bad times.. that is the conclusion.. this bad time is gona end... we are gona pull down the "demenders" :) form the top of the peak.. that will crush in to thousand pieces..

so this mad time(the big flame) is a sign for our good time...we wont be denied by GOD...the fire of anguish is goin to perish..our souls will be free..free to laugh...laugh out loud..till our stomach pains..till our eyes are full and red...till we fight to take breath...till we cry of happiness....so lets not kill our HOPE...

Confused State of Mind

Sitting in a darken corner
all alone with nothing but fear
Thoughts going through my mind
words are not making any sense
I feel upside down
My head is throbbing in pain
What should I say?
I can't find the words
To express the pain you've caused
My eyes are watering
my teeth are clinching
my palms are sweaty
I don't know what to do.
My mind is swarmming with memories
memories that don't even exist.
I am remembering times
that we never shared.
I am confused
My body is drenched in sweat.
I can't keep this up much longer.
my fingers are going numb
my knees feel shattered
my back is clunched over.
I have lost touch with myself
I have lost myself.
Who am I?

Story about "Confused State of Mind"
This poem speaks for itself. I am having a very difficult time in my life. Nothing is going right and I feel very alone and depressed. "Who am I?" "Why am I here?" "What is the point"...I just put those feelings, that we all face, into words. They are just words...

Hard,Horrid and Hopeless....

the weather is hot..
that burns my skin
like thousand poisond arrows
striking togather
accross my frame..
eyes so life less
cold and sterile
and numb my feet
cuddle the earth
feverish and red
the glare of sun
hit on my scalp
like a hugh hammer on a nail
i walked and walked
slowly with my shaky legs
through the roads familiar
and earth abstained
with the crown of gloom
bored of the days
bored of the nights
bored of the same songs
and the old symphony of life
bored of the wind
bored of the sand
bored of the same questions
unanswered
where is our hope
for the dream of progress
where are our wishes
for the life refined
Nothing make sense
Nothing sense right
the rain of despond
soke us head to heal
glairing shivers of anguish
like a thunder in the sky
the color of blue
spreads all over
clading the world
the cloth of despair
No doors to escape
struck in a hollow
abandened for the day
abandened for evry seconds
finally..abandened for life
abandened are we
so abandened our rest life would be..

the long lost days..

hi kootharas.. so here i am after the long miseryfull days..let me cofess here that dho i missed our train journey and the time we spent togather, the bed rest thing was really good.,.except that i felt some kind of blankness on certain days..it seems like 2010 got nothing much to make us stretch out our mouth for our tooth set to gleam.. i am happy to be back with you girls that is thousnad times true.. but geting back to the hurry life really crash my brain.. i m feeling so much piety to ourself that now a days we are living like those wandering cursed ghosts.. how cant i say that i m geting stirred with hundreds of tensions which i myself know that many are overcomeable.. we are more over ignored by evry gods.. why?? i feel like soaking my head in ice cube box for some while.. just to stop the fire over my head... we are surly walking in the wrong path,...or we dont have courage to act as how our heart says.. we are not capable of violating the rules.. and we will accpet us like this soon thinking this is wot which is written fr us.. what will i say.. we have thousand plans, we are not able to take it to reality,like now a days i m not able to sketch up the pictures in my mind... we are goin to veega land next month for sure.. no changes at all..check if ther is any enggagements and we will pre book the tickets.. thats all.. if something wont happn in some days.. picture a day you all watching me behind iron bars... with trimmed hair.. dark circles around my eyes.. in white dress.. with cuffed hands and legs..the nearest such place is "kuthiravattam" in calicut...


now you stoppp laughing.. i am DAMN SERIOUS!!!!!