From a long ago..

i saw me roping up water from the well with difficulty..i was lean and i could see my bag ribs moving when each of my hands pull the rope backwards with force..i wore a long mud color skirt, a blouse that made my body bare from under the breasts till the line of my waist..i am not fare complexioned..i was indeed wheatish..and the most peculiar things is this that..i wore a head cloth that covered my head till nose..i wore black metal bangles, neck and ear ornaments..and a dot of red at the center between my eyebrows..who was I..? why do i look so..??i was with all force filling the mud vessels with water that i pull out from the well..it was hot outside but the water was as cold as rain..with the next bucket of water i give a punch on my face with a splash of it..that literally wake me up from the drowsiness of the heat that gulped me..the taste of the water was unexplainable..it was sweet and taste herbs.. i put a pot on my left waste, one over my head and one on my right waist..i don't know how i expertise this..but i was doing it out of habit..i saw children running hear n there..and i was walking through the narrow of a street that had open stalls on both sides.. fresh vegetables and fruits..cloth weavers and shoe makers..

The color that i could see all over was yellow or muddy..the bricks were not cemented and emulsified..it looked like earth grown in to shapes..women were all in the same attire as mine..and the men shouted in loud voice..speaking some unknown unrecognized language.."khe mo na hicho he monthary" one lady asked me.when i was stepping in to a house, i think, my house..the doors were constructed so low that i had to bend and get in and the rooms were dark..there was a small ventilator that passed a narrow line of sunlight in to the house..the floor was muddy but looked like smoothened and polished by using it for centuries.. the roof could be touched..shockingly i replied to that lady " him cho he monthary lona wu" my brain translated it to me..that it means..
a few more pots to be brought from the well..a mud brick fireplace that boiled something in a mud pot which smelled exquisite..and my mouth watered..i stood there staring at it and the lady who was aside stalked me and that made me to approach the well once again..when i stepped out..i found me eyeing towards a carpenter stall..where i found a man..an enough built, wheatish, sweaty, muscled man dressed in a white-turned-cream dhothy and a sleeveless top..a black rope around the neck with a black metal pendent, a turban and thick curled mustache..his face sharp and eyes fired..this man could be the hero of that place..his body moved while he worked and his muscles danced fiercely attracting every women of that street..i noticed a girl enjoying him from the roof of her house and what i did in rage was so culture less..i took a handful of cowdung  and throw it on her face..she spit right on my face from above and ran inside..when i turn my head towards his side..he was laughing that killing laugh showing the fangs that i always wanted to be bitten by..my heart beated like it would just pierce my left breast and fall down..my breaths thicken and then a shout from inside my house.. I carried the last three pots the same way i did before..

a few of  the girls looked like of my age came to call me..they had cloths in their arm and coconut husk fiber in one arm..they were waiting for me to go for a bath..but why,,??dont i have an attached bathroom..i searched inside my house..in the dark i saw a few partitions of cubes thats not attached to the roof..a three fourth covered walls in between and there were three segments, all small and earthen and dark..i was surprised.. in which period of the earth am i in..i re winded my memories and nothing appeared as such in the near times..the group called  me in unison and i took the cloths, towel and the husk fiber the lady in my house handed me over and set out with the girls..we crossed the carpenters..he was completely concentrated in his job but i longed for one single look of his..i stared him..i scanned his features..there could be no other man as perfect as him..i loved him..but do he..?? i wouldn't know.. the girls teased me.. but his attitude turned me down..but he didn't help my disappointment to last longer..he raised his face with a raised eye brow and a one cheek smile..he was the most adorable person in the world i murmured to me..

it was  an open wide pond..and there were two sections one for the men and the other for the women..there were a few other women bathing and some bathing their children..everyone with me undressed and changed to long knee length towel worn around from under the shoulder..their long sumptuous hair caressed their back..those sculpture like oily figures made water balls rolling all over when they dip them in the emerald water..i took my head dress and other and changed to the white towel..it was now i realized that i carried a better roll of back silky folds of coiffure under the veil of mine..i sticked out the clip that holded it and it fall down like a satin curtain smoothing down..it reached just above my knee and it looked magnificent..i joined with a few of them applying turmeric paste..and the fragrance of it made the surroundings lusting.. a dip bath in the cold water made me realize the truth that..this is not where i was till yesterday..i have traveled a long road backward and now i am in the time of untouched sophistication of innocence.. i am here where there is no crime to oneself or to others.. love live and executing the karma.. thats for what people in here live for..

while i enjoy my first day here..trying to experience the every bit of it..i forgot everything.. my ears dint listen my 'sahelis' calling me..my eyes didn't see the lights getting diminished.. i bathed to wash out all the sins i did till yesterday and prepared me to started  a new long ago life.. it was then i heard a splash of water on the other side, the male side..i swimmed a few steps and lean to see who is it at this time..my intuitions said its him..that macho..:) (hehe) i peeped in to see him undressing his top..he looked like the only master-piece of god..he bend down to take a handful of water and splash it on his face..i completely lost myself observing him and fantasizing him in my mind while he swam and appeared just in front of me..i was for an instance shocked and then shy which made my hands ran across my chest covering the ripe underneath the transparency. my eyes rolled down and my wet lips widen with a smile of worry..his long hair that touched his shoulder muscles dripped water that oozed down his navel..he touched me on my shoulder and held his hands on my chin..he raised my face to meet his eyes.. i see love and ecstasy there.. the darkness clouded and it was quite all around.. he enclosed me in his arms and we melted in to one.. in his husky voice he asked me " hown tho rme shinthane"..(what the hell does that mean..??) yes he asked me if i am afraid.. i shook my head saying no.. " sto mein shen hown ry katnaiche.??" he asked me again..why didnt i wait for him here since last friday..this clicked me..so we really were lovers..and we used to meet here..at the point where we are now..i started to work my brain again..trying to recollect things..a set of modern building and cars and planes shuffled away and then the sceneries of lush green field and the sight of the abandoned tree at the top of the hill appeared in my mind..i was in the swing and he was waving it for me..we both were laughing and singing while the wild birds made tunes for us..the manifestation of intense deep passionate love..he carries me like a feather so gently and carefully..we lay down on the grass watching the motions in each others eyes..is this true..?? am i that blessed to be in a real paradise..??

his warm breath on my face break my thoughts in to reality..he was asking me a hundred questions but i was lost somehwere.. he bend his face close to mine that there was just a slight slit for our breaths to pass..his lips pressed to mine..and i tasted the sweetness of his mouth..he took a handfull of my hairs and smelled it with ardor..i kissed his arms and neck and face and eyes..his long tight eyebrows and his stiff forehead.. he ran his face from my lips to neck, neck to the center of my chest and planted a kiss right in the pond of my navel..it sizzled me..i shrunk like a shrimp.. he cuddled me tight and i had no strength to escape from it..

from somewhere with in me,,..i felt i was committing a mistake..i enjoyed it but i wanted to get this over because a part of me shouted that i dont belong to this time..my mind is acting impractical..and all that i was experiencing was unreal..god..!! it was yet another dream..it was not real and now i am sitting on my bed with messed up hair and wide-sorrowed eyes..i turned to him and he was sleeping peacefully..i fall down on my pillow and tried hard to remember each points i saw just now..a few minutes later he woke up and as usual we simply lighted up a small-good-morning-chat..i kept this matter hidden and then it was him who surprised me saying this.." i just dreamed something but i  dont remember much..it was so strange and the place looked like ages back and the language they speak was even stranger you know, i was asking something to someone..like " sto mein shen hown ry katnaiche.??" something like this..and i dont know what it really was.." oh my god..!! i had a relief hearing this from him..and i am really surprised that it was him i was cuddled by in that long lost era,, and i didn't cheat him over loving someone else and making out with some other man..i am really relieved ;-) ..i never wanted to be touched by another man in my life..and it didnt happen even in my dream..it was him..it was we..a long back..a long long long back..

i had a conversation with my mother a few days back while she says she had my horoscope taken to an astrologer and he told her that our match was impeccable..our love is the strongest and the understanding is wordless..we were in love and where lovers and later husband and wife for the past few births..may be what i have seen was an episode from one of our births..i wish we could still live in that peaceful..lovely time..where there is no harm but only harmony..!!