Awareness

"Having knowledge of" this is what google answered me when i asked the meaning of "awareness". It can be alertness, enlightenment or whatever. Right now i am having an Ice cream, its a pretty hot day and its just taking every pinch of my energy from me..i sleep most of the time like i dont have anything to do..none can complain me but doin it on the climatic change.. Yes so right now i am having an ice cream that costs a 200 buck.. and this sticky frozen stuff is not doing any favor to me but gonna effect my health but still for the sake of pleasure i spent that 200 buck even when i am aware that there are millions on some part of the earth who will take it as a blessing if they get this 200 bucks that i simply wasted melting in my mouth..there are many who starve on the street..i sleep under a cute and cozy roof switching on my fan on high..same time some poor fellows acidic and thirsty trying to find a shade of a tree to help themselves protecting from the monstrous sun that can blow you on fire.. I am aware of these facts and the truth is but whats stopping me from doing things like this..??

while i simply type these words, i am aware that a few of the city police is tracking some criminals, our great soldiers are guarding our country from terrorist attacks or attacks from our enemies on the borders sleepless, some scientist watching on changes within the earth whether some earth quake is gonna happen or volcano's are gonna erupt and great astronomers are keeping their eyes 24/7 on alien attacks or meteor strikes..i am aware about these all things too..but how can i extend an helping hand..?? Not possible, i wonder then why is my mind upset and guilty whenever i do things that pleasures me..??

i spent money on a lot of things, like cloths, books, shoes and accessories, food items drinks and crockery and so on..the list is endless..a few books i havent even touched after buying it so is about a few sandals and cloths..do i give it away..?? No then my mind would shout from behind " no no, you spent this much on this, who knows you will get an occasion to wear it" and i would go back to the women waiting eagerly to collect those old cloths in front of my doors and nod sadly saying Nothings left..!! I am aware how bad that women would have felt, and i am aware i could save those money that i wasted unnecessarily..but this just happens..i always tries to clutch my mind when i am in some stores or shopping malls but it requires a fraction of a second to slip away from the balance..

And whenever i see people cutting trees i am aware that this is inviting a mass destruction. I am aware that there are fraudulent activities going on behind the food and health markets/departments, there are manipulations happening with law n order, there are repackaging of expired drugs and foods happening behind my back and at times when required i only buy it..I am aware of a lot of positive and negative things but i am helpless..i am bound to act against it and many a times my conscience push me to do it but my body wont work..the over awareness had created a numbness within me and nothing could cure it..i surrendered myself before all these sins..even then..?? did i get a solution to get rid of the awareness of the truths and make me capable to battle for it../?? no rather i found out another way..

Be aware of yourselves..be aware of the inner self , listening to my heart beat, trying to listen to my own breaths, listening to the robotic works thats happening unstopingly within me.. I found out a way to be aware of my emotions and actions thus i control it before it become vulnerable.. awareness of my 'self' has created an harness that can take control of everything, everything means every single thing..It also allows freedom, it only controls me for itself..

Yes this is it..be aware of yourself and once every one do this..the whole cycle will motion rhythmically in a good way that produce laughter..not tears..simply escape within your 'SELF'