Wanna be successfull in lyf..but why??

How to be successful in life?
Isn’t that an age-old ,one billion dollar question?But I’ld like to think it the other way.”Why do you wanna be successful in life?!”
‘Success’ is a subjective term..For me,success maybe to have my plant yeild fruits,it maybe the smile on the face of suffering people and to know that iam the reason behind it and like wise .But for a person of different profile,success may mean to accumulate wealth and increase social status…to compete or co-operate with others…to destroy others who harm you, or to practice nonviolence and nonresistance …to die having succeeded in your purpose and so on..and finally,for some people it is to simply live until one dies!
Leaving aside the defenition of what success is,let us hear from people why they feel they should be successful.
“I need to be successful as to have a career and getting to live without regret into old age with lots of friends.”
“Because I need Money Money and Money.”
“I need to be successful inorder to reach the highest possible level of awareness, deepest possible level of perception, newest possible levels of consciousness.”
“If I am successful, I will have money. And really, money does buy happiness. In my opinion, living on the streets is not being happy for me.Also it helps because I am an advertisers dream. I buy what I want. (And that is basically everything I see).”
“For being able to look back on my life at deaths door, and smile.”
“Because if i’m not successful in doing what i love, then it would be a fairly depressing existence.”
“So that i can help less fortunate people .”
“I know what the struggle is like, and I would prefer to not lose hair each month when the bills arrive!”
……. So goes on the varied thoughts.
Well,this question gave some answers like these too:-)
“I don’t! The less success the better, I would rather live under a bridge than have to have bodyguards, or paparazzi following me around.”...............

To me , personally I need to be successful so that I’ll gain recognition in my personal life, career and among the friends who mean a lot and that is my barometer for success in journey through life.Sometimes i prefer crying alone and make the people around me happy n wen i see them smiling to me , i feel like iam the most successful women in this world ."How Many Lives did I touch " That is what makes sense to me.
And what is it to you?

Just think about it...sounds cool na.....:)

Bday

Dear All :

Happy Bday to my soul mates, my frnds , my sister evrthng the one n only ik4...Today , our Bday and it seems very odd as none of us were able to meet today...

The day was so hectic for me...everthing was horible, the train journey the ofce work the return journey evrything...

Couldnt even talk to any of the IK4...iam really sad n evrthing that is hapning around me is going in a wrong way...still i ve to fix a smile on my face to make others happy..Dont knw why is it lik this 4 me always...

hmm..any way, its our bday..even though we could nt celebrate it properly we all love this day...SO happy Bday to IK4

i miss u ol so badly....love u so muchhh

Intimacy

An intimate experience is one of the cherished moments of your life. Nothing else can be more fantastic than sharing your deepest thoughts with the person you love the most. “Fear of intimacy”,a common term referred to in failing relationships.Ever wondered why it matters so much?Well,I personally believe that a relationship is all about intimacy,and fear of intimacy ruins the basic fulfillment and no beautiful and long-lasting bonds can be developed over such a fragile foundation.It is hard for most of us to believe that if someone else REALLY knows us, they will still love us.

Intimacy is communicating your true thoughts and feelings;fear of intimacy involves emotional walls.Intimacy in relationships involves sharing what you really think,believe and feel.It’s about opening up your heart and mind,and lettng others do the same.It’s risky,which is why fear of intimacy often develops.Intimacy is very risky. It requires making such a serious commitment to the relationship that each person will experience a sense of dependency on the other.Even if you love someone who loves you back wholeheartedly and vows to never hurt you,you’re taking a risk.But as potentially risky as loving is not-loving is worse.

When you now what you fear,you’re in a better position to deal with it.Opening your heart and letting go of your fears can be difficult.But you’ve to when it becomes inevitable in making the relationship a beautiful one.Fear of intimacy can be overcome only when the dread of rejection is removed.The strongest foundation of an intimate relationship is a good friendship.Ask yourself questions like ’what stops me being more intimate in my relationships’ and rapidly move to ‘what will happen when I am able to be more intimate in my relationships?’.The answer you find yourself you open up windows and let bliss flow in.

Always remember that not everyone can express their feelings well.If you want,then you can practice on being more intimate.However,there is no way you can change the people you love.While we cannot change others,we can encourage them to express themselves.It is important to let them know that we won’t reject them,no matter what.Thatz part of trust building we talk about.Encourage openness and honesty.The more we discuss fear of intimacy,the more the other person may open up.Overcoming fear of intimacy requires honesty on both sides.The more both partners open up and embrace each other,the more deeper and intimate the relation will be....

courtesy to one of my frnd for this blog..:)

ChaNge..

even dho we were looking out fr a change..its kinda sore feeling whn we got it, like its feeling like..everything changed all in a moment..so suddenly..god changed us like some magicians turn a paper ball in to flowers in a single spell.. faith is always beyond our wish.. this is wot we wanted but ..we didnt want it this quickly.. paachus got transfer..i resigned and gona join new job frm 05th onwards..the one left is Munnus.. sure by the month of May.. yu will also get yur turn..life is too misterious..too unpredictable..things happns in that very unexpected manner..life is like a flash light ..as sir.paulo says.. "ths world is never a safe place to live" why arent we not able to live our life as we wish..?? why arent we doing wat we really wants to do?? i m scared..m scared about every next moment..m feeling insecure..feelin like m being send to a lonely planet..with alians all around.. i wana scream loudly.. ;[

lets...lets just pray god..i dont have anything els to write..

hmmmmmmm...:(

Its been days i have been trying to post smething...dnt knw wats happening to me..dnt knw hw to explain the feeling thro which iam goin right now...

We have been asking GOD for a change for long tim..but when it startd happening....:(

Pachu got transfer , for which we were praying for almost 1.5 years...its a happy news, but at the same time its a bad nws tooo..she will be leaving us shortly...

we knw we will be together , even if we got scattered here n ther for the time being...but this transition is really painfull....hard to bear..


machu's fare well day, its also a change..

changes r happening one by one ..but still we r sad..

life is always pushing hard...from the time of birth, any how i was able to find happiness even in small things..... i have been struggling each n every moment..and things turned to be really hard since March 21st,2005 and now its 5 years ..dnt knw why it happnd lik this....

above all we were able to find happiness when we were together...Now we have entered a stage of departure even though it is for a short span of lyf...

I dnt know hw to express my feelings at this moment...


words r struck sme where...i cant write anything...

Love u ol....miss uuuuu.....

the Arrival ... the Departure

butterflies fluttered inside my stomach..i was uncontrolably nervous..i wonder y this happen evn if it was our third meeting..i was so anxious but least concious about how i am..my heart pumped strongly, that i could hear every single beats clearly...there was nothing solid under my legs..i was floating on the air..all this smothered me until my view striked on him..i was holiding "patchs" hand n i was in a sub-unconcious stage,i could feel her fingers..i could hear her saying some thing from far away..Happiness was over flowing..it mute my ears..i never was happy this much whn i passed exams,or whin i got job..we walk towards him..she waved and left us alone..we were so close but it was uneazy fr me to face him..to look at his eyes..to talk.. :)..

The day went unusual..nothing much happened..walked and took rides..foods..fights..laughs..silly talks; we nourished our time with endless topics..i dont have an idea about how fast a day ran to set..after a long days i got freedom from every haunting worries..

As time passed i realized its soon gona be the time to depart..i counted dowm the last hours..2hrs..1 & 1/2hrs..and 1/2 n hr befor we boarded the train..we shaired his reserved window seat..then that was moments of silence..the number of stations for my destination kept on decreasing..i purposely made topics to break the silence..his answers cut short in to single words..a question "when you wil come again"poped up in my mind a thousand times..finally i asked.. he replied comfortingly "next time for our mariage".. it upset me but i gave a grave smile in responds.. 10 minutes befor my place we both decided to be at the door thinking of the ease to get down with out caughting in the web of departers crowd..

as the train wheeled in to the station platform i turned look at hime once again at him but suddenly withdrawed.he too got down with me..i can still feel the air when we parted that day..our fingers lingered for long..wishing to be within forever..eyes fixed firm on each others..he said "dont stay, go..its late..i want to see you goin" i couldnt utter a word..i nodded approvingly..and turned against him..wiping evry drop of sorrow..i know he is mine..we owe each other..still the pain of seperation defeated me..i became inconsolable..i fasten my steps..knowing the guy who adores me is being in the same situation as i am..but i was too week to give him a look again..i climbed the over bridge..my lips trembled..my legs shuddered..i saw him down a hundred inches..his head stretched upward..in the bustling crowd it wasnt difficult for me to spot him out.. :( i crossed the bridge and reached the first platform..by then i was too far from him..while i walk towards the entrence,the train moved,i counted the moving couches till "s4" to give a final wave..he was there at the door and waved me back until his sight split from me...the cold air numbed my whole body..i walked tilting in the wind..looking forward for another wonderful time..a time,just for us :)..

dying flame..

gals today i am with an interesting topic aboute "dying flame".. :) .dho the heading of the topic smells a negative cookie,this is absolutely unique from the previous posts.. i know at this particular moment.. nothing in the world can intrest the 6 senses of iK4..but i cant resist me from taking this time to tok about a subject which born from the womb of positive..

see..we all have had heard about one of the famous proverb calld "anayaan pokunna thiri aali kathum" yes a dying flame burns furiously bright.. apart from tucking ourselfs in an unpleasent mark.. lets this time change the plate.. i can see, we are all in a dramatic condition these days..i will say since the year start. i can even fact that we never had this kind of squeezed up time in our life., we faced lot of troubles..some even ran us to the thot of commiting suicide...but some other factors made us hold back ourselves... at this moment the lights of our courage is totaly diminished..and hope..totally drained.. we are running through a world like a white blank paper..we dont see the cungestions of the traffic, we dont hear the laughs and cries of others, we dont realized when it is light around and when it is drak..we are in a single word called "BOREDOM"..we are not even just "in" that state.. we are infected by boredomness..it should be cured or we will suffer like anything...

all in a point we are on the peak of our bad times..thers no going forward..thats the end..on the topest point..our despair is on the peak..like the flame of a dying candle..thers nothing called "next" thers no future tens.. thats simply the end.. while nearing the peak of a mountain the world becomes small..and our vision far wider..it gives great views..the views of the traveled path dried with the sweats of our hopelessness..same way the candle.. burns in the misery of bad luck.. which remains the ashes of the past...sooon it will be blown by the wind of happiness leaving no traces of the bad times.. that is the conclusion.. this bad time is gona end... we are gona pull down the "demenders" :) form the top of the peak.. that will crush in to thousand pieces..

so this mad time(the big flame) is a sign for our good time...we wont be denied by GOD...the fire of anguish is goin to perish..our souls will be free..free to laugh...laugh out loud..till our stomach pains..till our eyes are full and red...till we fight to take breath...till we cry of happiness....so lets not kill our HOPE...

Confused State of Mind

Sitting in a darken corner
all alone with nothing but fear
Thoughts going through my mind
words are not making any sense
I feel upside down
My head is throbbing in pain
What should I say?
I can't find the words
To express the pain you've caused
My eyes are watering
my teeth are clinching
my palms are sweaty
I don't know what to do.
My mind is swarmming with memories
memories that don't even exist.
I am remembering times
that we never shared.
I am confused
My body is drenched in sweat.
I can't keep this up much longer.
my fingers are going numb
my knees feel shattered
my back is clunched over.
I have lost touch with myself
I have lost myself.
Who am I?

Story about "Confused State of Mind"
This poem speaks for itself. I am having a very difficult time in my life. Nothing is going right and I feel very alone and depressed. "Who am I?" "Why am I here?" "What is the point"...I just put those feelings, that we all face, into words. They are just words...

Hard,Horrid and Hopeless....

the weather is hot..
that burns my skin
like thousand poisond arrows
striking togather
accross my frame..
eyes so life less
cold and sterile
and numb my feet
cuddle the earth
feverish and red
the glare of sun
hit on my scalp
like a hugh hammer on a nail
i walked and walked
slowly with my shaky legs
through the roads familiar
and earth abstained
with the crown of gloom
bored of the days
bored of the nights
bored of the same songs
and the old symphony of life
bored of the wind
bored of the sand
bored of the same questions
unanswered
where is our hope
for the dream of progress
where are our wishes
for the life refined
Nothing make sense
Nothing sense right
the rain of despond
soke us head to heal
glairing shivers of anguish
like a thunder in the sky
the color of blue
spreads all over
clading the world
the cloth of despair
No doors to escape
struck in a hollow
abandened for the day
abandened for evry seconds
finally..abandened for life
abandened are we
so abandened our rest life would be..

the long lost days..

hi kootharas.. so here i am after the long miseryfull days..let me cofess here that dho i missed our train journey and the time we spent togather, the bed rest thing was really good.,.except that i felt some kind of blankness on certain days..it seems like 2010 got nothing much to make us stretch out our mouth for our tooth set to gleam.. i am happy to be back with you girls that is thousnad times true.. but geting back to the hurry life really crash my brain.. i m feeling so much piety to ourself that now a days we are living like those wandering cursed ghosts.. how cant i say that i m geting stirred with hundreds of tensions which i myself know that many are overcomeable.. we are more over ignored by evry gods.. why?? i feel like soaking my head in ice cube box for some while.. just to stop the fire over my head... we are surly walking in the wrong path,...or we dont have courage to act as how our heart says.. we are not capable of violating the rules.. and we will accpet us like this soon thinking this is wot which is written fr us.. what will i say.. we have thousand plans, we are not able to take it to reality,like now a days i m not able to sketch up the pictures in my mind... we are goin to veega land next month for sure.. no changes at all..check if ther is any enggagements and we will pre book the tickets.. thats all.. if something wont happn in some days.. picture a day you all watching me behind iron bars... with trimmed hair.. dark circles around my eyes.. in white dress.. with cuffed hands and legs..the nearest such place is "kuthiravattam" in calicut...


now you stoppp laughing.. i am DAMN SERIOUS!!!!!