This is 2015. 10 years back, yes 10 years is what a decade is. Holy crow! times super-fast. Ok 10 years back while I was still studying at the same time under-going the most painful time of my life, hoping and praying god for passing me from that state of vein, i would ask myself this question very often "what will be my life like after 10 years? ".."where will I be?"..."will I be rescued from this heart bleeding by then..?" and so many questions of sorts. I, many a times thought if i could foresee the future. But no! I didn't had that supernatural ability, I had to wait and kept going in the flow of countless number of faces gurgled passed me like a flood. It wasn't an easy ride, its still not. But it shaped me smooth polishing my sharp edges and nibs so that I can roll easily with the current. I am a strong person after a decade of being polished by different scenarios of life. I am happy and thankful to everything that made me the person I am today. Every good things and bad things, every sadness and trochees, every struggles and the many people who came to my life and left. some did care to scribble on the pages of my soul, but a few simply left quite. I remember all of you still and forever. Above all i am thankful to myself to that person in me who kept encouraging me and who even played dramas in my mind keeping me subtle and calm. My heart could live a lifetime without blood but Love it was impossible to pump at once without it. It always craved Love and when at times in my life I was abandoned and left alone by destiny, my soul kept playing epic of love within my head with solid colour pictures and kept me confident. I still don't have any idea, how on earth would someone live a stage of their life in a completely imaginary world. I did my stuffs and followed a disciplined routine but i would escape to my world that i don't know if exist in any part of this world. This is where i find me as awesome as the greatest artists. Only things is this that my soul can execute something like that only within me but its just a crybaby when it comes to open its talent to the world.
So while it is 2015, and i am 27 now, I would once again like to look back at my life and judge my past. 10 years ago, I was as delicate as a wafer that anyone could break it smash it ground it and simply blow it in the air. As time pass by, I evolved in to something solid and beautiful like the great barrier reef, my talents and calibres are the pearls and corals, and now I decide to adorn me with a tiara made of it. Let me expose it to the world with pride. I would thank all of you who visited my soul and touched it drawing beautiful pattens on it. The first few people i would mention here would alwaysbe you three whom I always had and still have; of course on the top Goofy (Abdul Rauf) a true friend who guided me and protected me from falling in to the dirty holes, Sosha (Alpha VJ) who still treats me as her only friend and no matter how far I go, would chase me somehow and keep in touch, Chandu (Chandhana) who have been a sister and cared me like her own,
My memory lapse. I know i am not even through the first trimester of my own life. But it just happens and i dont know how will i complete the list. Even though i dont remember the names, i still feel the ripple across my heart that was made from the tender touch of yours...some names are embossed on to my memory's shell while some faces are painted on the canvases of my heart..there are even vague..faded faces on the walls of my long ago ruined mansions of dreams that collapsed in the earth quakes on the run...i wont make you disappear rather i will preserve it for life and if another destruction rumbles you down..i would still dig and excavate and pick every pieces and ensafe it in the crystal cubes safely until.... until i get diluted in the dark vastness of this universe and my possessions take shape into toddlers of stars....
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